Waiting...

Ok, so I'm just about the last person on earth that anyone would expect a sports analogy from (given the fact that my understanding of sports is so limited that a friend once asked me if I wanted to go to the driving range and I told him I didn't want to shoot things), but do you ever feel like you are sitting on the bench just dying to get into the big game, and it's just not your turn yet?

That's kind of how I feel right now.

To be perfectly honest, I don't really have any room to complain. Life's pretty good overall and I know how blessed I am in so many ways. And I'm thankful to the One who blesses me, because I know how undeserving I am. But in a way, I feel like I'm on the brink of something big, and I just have to keep waiting on that bench. Fortunately I know the Coach I have, and that He knows just the right timing of all things. He's shown his wisdom to me in the past, and so I daily surrender my will and desires to His.

On January 1st, 2005, I wrote in my journal that the Lord had put a verse on my heart for the year to come. For some reason, I just knew 2005 was going to be a year characterized by the verse "The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord." And it was. The Lord gave in many ways. The Lord took away in many ways. And through it all, there has been no sweeter truth to me than that which says "Blessed be the name of the Lord."

And so, I will wait.

And I will pray, and serve, and try to love, and stumble along the way, and make some big mistakes. But it's okay, because I know I can trust the One with the plan.